all I want is you (for Kate)

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Magnus found and returned to Will made for a good day and now two days later, it seems everything's back to some semblance of normal. There's still the bit about Kate bolting on him the morning Magnus disappeared but Declan's learned the best way to get Kate to talk is just to wait her out and she'll come around eventually; pressuring her doesn't seem to do any good.

He's settled in with a book, this one on boat-building of all crazy things and wonders if it's really true that they can't get off the island. He's seen a few boats, fishing boats, and there's that pirate ship but nothing like a cruise liner or a battleship and if they had one of those, maybe they could get home. Magnus and Will might not want to go home but Declan does because Declan can't stand feeling useless. This island makes him useless.

When he hears the door crack to his hut, he doesn't get up. It's Kate, if anyone, because Magnus and Will would knock and Tesla would have already announced himself by now.

"Bedroom," he calls out, not that she'll need the direction.

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When Declan pushes into her, Kate arches up to him and her head falls back. Her legs wrap around his hips before she can get her brain around the fact it's Declan she's panting like a bitch in heat for, and pull him in further.

She's not sure what he's asking and she's not sure whether that's because she's missing some context or because he just took her in a single thrust (Declan did) and now she's reeling, loving the burning and stretch and fullness. Her eyes are heavy-lidded, not wanting to stay open and her body feels heavy too, heavy and wet and needy. Even her arms feel heavy when she hooks them over his shoulders.

Kate wants. Oh gods yes she wants. "Declan." She opens her eyes so he can see she's looking at him and knows who she's doing this with. "Yeah. I want you. Fuck me." Please.

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She hardly seems to need the encouragement but Declan gives it anyway, soft words of praise while he's moving in her, telling her she's beautiful when he pulls out and rocks back in. It's all true, more or less, but Declan's sure he's showing his hand before it's prudent; he has a suspicion he cares a lot more than she does.

He can't help it, though, not when she needs something to help her forget and he just plain needs her.

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Men praising her when they're fucking her, not a first. Not even close. Kate's so lost in the steady, demanding rhythm of it that she doesn't even really hear it right away. Sweat sheens her face and chest within a few thrusts and it's not until a shiver rolls up her spine that she catches the tone of his voice and connects the dots.

Her fingers spasm against his back from the kick of fight or flight and her rejecting that just as fast. She slides one hand up his spine to curl around his neck and haul him down to her. Before she kisses him, she opens her eyes again, looks into his and whispers his name. It's new, needing someone to stay more than to GTFO, but she can't lose him and the pretty praises are a promise she doesn't want but needs anyway.

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It's probably one of the stupider things he's done, sleeping with Kate, but it feels so damn good and she needs it so badly that Declan pushes it out of his mind. He's close, so close, but he wants her to come first because it's about her, not him, and he wants to be sure she knows that.

"Come for me," he breathes hot against her ear, lips traveling down her neck after. "You know you need to."

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Needs to, fuck yeah she needs to, but she's riding the heat of this, holding off, forcing herself to wait. "Don't... don't want to..." she pushes out between gasps for breath. "Not yet." Even though she's so close every thrust makes her eyes roll back.

Her fingernails rake over his shoulders and down his back and her hips lift into him. "Not...yet... please." Her voice breaks on the please, first shudder of orgasm taking her whether she wants it or not, and she clamps down, trying so hard to stop it.

If she comes, he'll come, then it'll all start again.

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She's begging him not to let her but she's coming anyway, tight around his cock and Declan buries his face against her shoulder as she comes and brings him over with her. His teeth scrape against her skin but he tries to keep it light so she doesn't bruise; why, he doesn't know, considering she's used to it like that.

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Maybe, maybe without the sting of his teeth, maybe she could have held on, waited, stayed here in this moment longer. But his teeth scrape her neck and she's gone, hurtled headlong into an O so all-consuming there's no room for sound.

The room pulses with the shimmer of light behind her eyes. For a few seconds, perfect seconds, her skin fits right again, she knows who she is and who she's with, and everything's right again.

It's still pretty fucking great a few minutes later when her hand drifts through his hair. "Damn, babe," she says, hushed, and stretches a little under him.

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"That bloody good, yeah?" Declan asks, a little out of breath himself. He rolls off her slightly but keeps close, tugging her up flush to him. Probably a stupid idea, giving into this, but in the grand scheme of things Declan doesn't think it's too stupid; he's wanted her, after all.

He leans in to kiss her, softer and more tender than before.

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It's always Kate's instinct to pull away as soon as the orgasms are over, but it doesn't take a relationship guru to see that pulling away from a good friend after sex is a bad idea. But that kiss, that kiss is trouble. Capital T. Capital F for Feelings.

And capital K for Kate's going to screw this up.

She stays in his arms, kisses back and tries to be sweet about it. When she breaks the kiss, she runs her hand down his arm and molds his hand over her ass. More, is always a good solution. She smirks lightly, aiming for playful. "Told you my clothes would look good on your floor."

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"What do I owe you for getting that right, then?" Declan teases back, smirking at her. It's easier to tease, really, than actually talk to her about how he feels more than just friendship. Declan's never been very good at separating sex from feelings and he's spent most of the past few years alone because of it.

Kate, on the other hand, seems the sort to enjoy sex just for the fun of it and not because she feels a certain way. Declan wishes it was that easy.

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Kate's got an entire list of things she wants to do with him, which kind of surprises her. It's not that she's never had regular booty calls. It's just been a long time and Declan's not a bored on Saturday night fuck.

She smooths a hand down his arm and her smirk softens to a more honest smile. "I wouldn't say no to a repeat performance," she tells him, voice warm, hoping he'll remember their conversation. He's one of her best friends and a teammate. And maybe she sucks at the whole attachment thing, but she already has one to him. One that's really important to her. "And sleepover privileges with or without the repeats."

Nothing's changed, babe. I'm still me. Just naked and seriously hot for you.

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"Think I can manage," Declan says, hand toying with her hair lightly. "The repeat performance, that is."

She's important to him too, as both a teammate and a friend, and Declan hopes it doesn't start getting awkward when and if she decides she doesn't want this part of it.

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"Think you can?" Kate teases him, sultry and intimate, before she presses up as close as they can be without fucking. She slips a hand between them to strip the condom and not coincidentally cop a feel of him, wet with come, still soft, sloppy. It's not a thing a lot of women like, but Kate's not most women, and him feeling like that's kind of a triumph.

After she ties off the condom and pitches it, Kate ducks her head to kiss his neck again. "My money's on you, British." But she's not above stacking the decks.

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"I'm not seventeen," Declan says dryly, but he manages a grin for her. If she wants to go again and he can make it happen, he will, but it won't be any time soon.

"Just lay with me for a while, Katie. No rush."

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"Didn't mean now, babe," Kate tries again, fingertips trailing down his arm. "Or not just now." But there is kind of a rush, too. She can't...

She can. Stay as long as he needs her to. Because it's something. It's something worth doing. Staying because Declan needs to know he's not just a one-off for her.

This caring about other people is a real fucking pain in the ass sometimes, but at least he makes it easy. She kisses him slowly. "Thanks, for...you know. Everything. This."

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"Never thank me for making love to you," Declan says quietly, catching her mouth in another long, slow kiss that probably tells more about his feelings than it should. It's probably a bad idea to keep showing her that hand.

"Did it help any?"

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Making love. Kate wants to roll her eyes, but she doesn't. It's Declan, and the way he keeps kissing her, it's a lot closer to that than anything else. Say something to him, ignore it? Running feels like the best answer, but it's the one thing she can't do.

"Declan," she says his name softly, drawing it out slow. "Don't..." Don't love me. But she can't say that. And she shouldn't do this, but she will anyway. She's never met a bad idea she didn't like. "Yeah, it helped. You always help."

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"Keep saying things like that and it'll go to my head," Declan warns, combing his hand through her hair. He wonders about the don't but if Kate's not elaborating, he's not going to push it.

"But I'm glad I help. For what that's worth."

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It's really fucking hard to hide wrapped up in his arms like this. Really hard to lie, even though she's good at it. But she's afraid to lie to him, and afraid not to. Afraid to lose him, and afraid to hold on.

She's so tired of being scared.

"This is good. You and me. It's good for you, right? I'm not... The last thing I want to do is make this fucking island harder for you, Declan." She does care, and asking about him's better than talking about her.

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"Very good. A little too good, honestly," Declan tells her. It's true that he's probably a little too attached but he's never been able to be casual about sex. He's never been the sort for one night stands or anything less than proper relationships and years working for Magnus has meant a lot of time alone.

"Don't worry. I'm not going to turn into Zimmerman."

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"Good. Will's cute and everything and he's probably really smart about what makes a girl tick, but..." Kate makes a face, even though she's thought about it. Him and Magnus. But she's not going to go talking about that in bed with Declan. "That'd be like fucking my superego or something."

She rubs a hand over his chest, trying not to think about the 'too good' part of it and failing. Sighing, she rests her forehead next to her hand on his chest. "I'm not good at this, Declan, and I can't really promise you...anything without lying to you. But I like this. I like being with you."

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"I'm not looking for promises," Declan says after a moment. It takes him a little while to work up the courage to even say that much and he's afraid he'll start telling her about how he's damned tired of being lonely and scare her off.

"But if you like this, then, I can give you as much as you want."

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That surprises her, that he's not looking for promises. "No promises, just repeat performances?" she asks, a little skeptical, but her hands are gentle, sweet over his skin.

There's a lie here, but it's one she's told for such a long time, it's become true. He just keeps trying to unravel it. She can't let him.

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"For right now, I don't need promises," Declan corrects, imagining it's best just to get his intentions out in the open. Her hands are gliding over his skin and it feels good but he wants more. Wants her.

"For right now, repeat performances are all I'll ask about."

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Kate takes a deep breath, in through her nose and out through her mouth. No panicking. No snarking. No running. She'll deal with later when it happens. Her smile's a little tight at first, before she locks eyes with him. But then he's just...Declan. "Told you I was pretty sure you could interest me in those. Guess I was right."

They've done enough talking and Declan's getting that look. A look like it might be a really good time for a repeat performance. So she rolls to her stomach with one foot up, props up on her elbows, and glances at him along her shoulder, his own private playgirl. "I'm interested now, babe. All yours."